So my parents and sister left this morning. I am really upset. I didn't remember how badly I needed them. You know, it's funny, we think we come to college and grow up so that we can function on our own, without the help of our families, but in reality, we come to college to grow up so that we can finally realize what being a family is all about. It's about knowing when to say "I love you" and it's about knowing how to truly be there for others. It's about learning when to say "I miss you" and when to be strong. It's about pulling together when things get tough, and remembering to rejoice when life is going really well. It's about learning to love others more than we love ourselves, and finally realizing that without our family, we are nothing. They are who makes us who we are... they are the ones who hold us to the highest standards, who push us to become everything we can be, and the only ones who are always there to catch us when we fall. Because that's what a family is... a loving, supportive, precedent breaking, envelope pushing, pain in the ass group who always loves us for who we are. Whether we are at the top of our class, or we've hit rock bottom, our families are the ones we can always count on to share our joys, celebrate our victories, and to be with us when we face defeat.
Maybe that's why my family means so much to me... because I actually realize that, and appreciate them for who they are.

Ok so I'm back, and I've decided that allowing other people to scare you away from your own website is just juvenile. This is my journal, this is me, and if you don't like it, don't read it.

There. I feel better. My mother would be proud.
(and yes, mom, I am still keeping the other site for my more personal thoughts)

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So now for an update:

Valentine's Day was great. I still don't know what all this "Spring Break Extravaganza" holds. All I know is how cute he is, and how excited he is about it. And no matter what it entails, just seeing him like that is more than enough.

Things are so different with him now. Wonderfully different... and yet, in all of the positive ways, very much the same.

Here's to not having a clue about what is going to happen this time,
CB

It was a beautiful day today, and I spent it with my family at the beach.

More later including pictures.

Leave me some love,
CB

p.s. Due to massive traffic on this site, and mis-interpretation by many. I am going to stop writing here as I have been doing in the past. From now on, this will contain brief updates about my life only. Goodbye xanga, maybe someday I'll return.